It has been years since I last blogged.

I don't blog nearly as much as I used to. There are many things that I do not do as much as I used to. Eating is not one of them. To update, Moving out west to start a new life seems daunting but whatever comes my way I will meet with the tools I have as I always do. People are sad to see me go as I am most loved. It is mutual. The mutual part is the hardest. At best people think of you what you think of them. It seems odd to me some of the issues that I have come across. Generally I have managed most things quite well to my thinking. Not as good as I would like but the best that I can do. I am never surprised by peoples selfishness anymore. It is constant and consistent. Silly me to think that my life is my life. I look forward to the up coming challenges. I find it at least interesting that my skill set is so rare, or at least it seems to be. I find a way to help for more often than just try. I do fail on occasion to help people but it is a much smaller portion than others. I don't think that I am too hard to help. Simple really, I like food, boxing, playing my guitar, rock and roll concerts, drinking 3 or less beers, crude humor. I do not like to be belittled and mocked nor dominated. If you choose to do that to me I will do it back to you. Crazy to see how much people whine and complain with everything that they do they don't even realize it. If you demonstrate disappointment for things that should not disappoint you you suck balls and should be slapped. I, as if you know me would know, have the ability to listen and think outside my own eyes to aid people with their problem. In crisis I almost never criticize. I choose encouragement as my tool. It is quite easy and I will share it with all of you. Tell people what they are and not what they are not. It is simple to find fault, hard to notice quality. You can lead more people by not pushing. Try not to alienate others by your help. Because at the root of it you should care more about the rapport with people than being right and as for me. Don't put your hand near a growling dog. Now, I would assume that this is basic stuff but it is not. It is a good thing for me that I rely on myself for the most part anyway. I have learned the hard way the confide is the root word to confidence. I notice when I disappoint and hurt others expectation but I don't tend to make a habit out of being ignorant. I tend to argue that ignorance is stupidity not corrected. Now something you do for the first time it is easy to be naive. But being a person someone would bring their problems and needs to should be learned by most people over 9. Anyway, at my core I am building my strength. I am grateful to those who do help me. I am amazed at those who can do it in a way that does not glorify themselves or alienate me. I strive to correct my wrongs but to those that I offend that will be the end of my remedy. I do not kiss ass anymore unless I want to. Wouldn't that be great if everyone was as bold and direct. If you like ask me what I think of you and I will tell you. I don't have a problem with that. To those people that I call or keep close touch with you should know already. I am at a point in my life that if you will be real with me I will be real with you. If you feel justified to attack me so will I. If you show me kindness, so will I. I am a mirror to my environment. I had a beautiful dinner Sunday, I called my friends to thank them. I did not deserve it. They were not paying me back for something I did earlier. They are kind to me as I am to them. Great friends. I have many. I am blessed........Anyway, I am venting which is boring I would much rather rant. I will leave you all with a thanks to those who deserve one and I wish you could get your head out of my ass for those who don't. Be the best you can be. Know the people you love so that you CAN help them. Be a person of importance to more people than yourself. Don't let your right hand be the only source of gratification you have. And, most of all, is patience and tolerance for all things. That is what I am trying so hard to regain. Also, Nothing annoys someone more than telling them something they already know, especially in a way that makes them more provoked. That and I pay all of my debts, Good and Bad.