What is your weakness for the day.

Everybody has a weakness. Some people are riddled with them like ridges on ruffles potato chips. That's all you see is their flaws. Others hide them well. Some people don't have many as they just don't seem to care about anything at all. What will piss me off is generally when people are rude or disruptive, which I generally am so I am always mad at myself. Maybe I will change some of the things that I am. Interesting times for the family as we are attempting to plan a party for our mother whom is turning 70 years old. Great idea but much more difficult to pull off than you would think. The infighting that exists in families knows no bounds or limits. We choose not to get along when we should yield and do our best. The simplest of actions such as enjoying someones company is too much of a burden to endure. If we don't care about other people why are we so upset with them. It just does not make much sense to me. We shall see how the party goes. I hope it all goes well. Well enough of that sad crap.

What is so great about baseball. I think baseball is gay. The whole idea of it bores me to hell. People are so excited about the pitchers and the catchers being at spring training. That shows us that they celebrate gay activity. Also we celebrate the Olympics just a bit too much. Anything that takes four years to happen is just not worth getting that excited about. It is like my sex life. As little action as I get would not warrant such anticipation.

Today is another day.

Just another day for me. How about you? I hope that all is well with you and you have peace in your heart and mind. Together you and your happy thoughts could take a shower. I have been asked lately if my meds are correct. All because I have the ability to articulate complex emotions and thoughts don't think that I am loosing my mind. I know that the world at large would rather just not hear it and I may comply. I just may not have a lot to say. So in my silence I suffer alone, like I do on this blog. Alone I am not. I am proud of the life that I have created. I have a loving wife, more cars than I need and the respect from those whom I care about. What more could a man ask for. I could command the respect from those that I do not care about but that is a fools game. I am just waiting to see what hand to play next. Waiting, waiting, waiting. Usually waiting is met with disappointment and that's why we hate it so much. Good things come to those that wait. That is wrong. I have to act happy everywhere I go so not to burden people with my burden. That is fine for the most part and fair, I just wish others would play by the same rules. Some people make it their mission to influence others for the dumber. I don't. I consistently and often under punishment try to make people better people. I tolerate them and try to aid their journey through life with some insight. From my perspective it is a rare skill. People are generally better at pissing people off than helping them. I have a few friends that help me even though they don't know it. I keep it to my self. I don't want them to know that I know that they know me.

Things are sad all over. I am proud of my friend.

I have been looking for some emotional or spiritual or who knows the hell kind of uplifting thoughts to help me through this hard time that I am going through and I am devoid of most inspiration. However, In seeing how other people act to adversity can be amazing. It is great when they will still be good fathers and brothers and husbands and all that stuff even through they crap in a bag or talk threw a tube. They will still be the things they have to be in spite of their disability. I am humbled. That inspires me to be good at all the things I need to be good at. No words can convey the path that just has to be walked. So to my good friend know that I care and I am sorry that I have not seen what you are going through because of my head and ass's relationship.