Home Alone

The wife was out of town for the past week. She went to Vegas with my mother. Supposedly she won money. Supposedly she missed me. We shall see when she gets home. The house is in good order and all went smoothly when she was gone. No disasters. Not much happened.

I was bored when she was gone so I ordered the Doctor Mengela home experiment kit. I wanted to see how many days a small dog can go without food and no could answer the question.

We had a good jam last night. trying to blend with the new guitar player. He plays well and that is cool.

Another random thought in conversation with someone who was having trouble with there husband I commented that there is a reason that men can not reproduce with other men. It would result in inbreed retardation.

I think that I got most of the old man smell out of the Buick. It is really a nice driving car. Kind of boring but then again so am I.

Timmy pick up a girl last night and got some action. He is very please. I just hope that he doesn't get any horrible rash from this one like he did last time he got some. Anyway, he is having fun and that is a start.

Just resting up on my Sunday afternoon over a friends house. He cooked me a Delicious meal with a nice cake for dessert. I felt bad that he wife is there while he tries so hard to pursue me. I almost feel guilty. I don't know what kind of magic I have but people love to feed me. It is nice.

My uncle did pass away and although I was not too close with him it is still sad. It brings up allot of inperfections in peoples relationships when a death occurs. It can bring out the worst in people more often than the best. People are way too concerned with what other people are doing. Like it matters anyway. You cant change the events or circumstances that much anyway. Tolerance for others is a big theme of mine. Some people have less tolerance than others. Some people have tolerance problems. I just try to stay out of the way.


That is all for today. The family loss has left me a bit melancholy

bob

What is up with my obsession with the pre dead

OK, it is sad news that my uncle is passing away. He was an okay unlce at best. see him at Christmas and that was about it. He only lived 5 miles away tops but he did not seem to have the patience or interest in kids. My family of five boys was a hand full but wtf we were loving little schmucks. I was going to go down for the funeral out of respect for my mother but she is not even going to attend. So I guess that I am off the hook there. I would have gone but if she is not there who am I going to support. Anyway, it is a strange preoccupation that I have had recently with the near or pre dead. I just bought a gentleman's car who was forced due to his declining capacities to move to a nursing home. The problem was that I had to wait a month for title to come in as he had lost it. The whole time wondering if he is going to make it long enough for me to get the car. It is a 2003 Buick Century with 23000 miles and one bad smell in the interior. Now I don't think that my balls smell that bad yet so my wife should not be running away the way she does. Oh well, that will be another days topic.

Other thoughts, why do we always blame the dogs owners for their problems. Look some dogs are just bad, like kids, even though there parents are good. We had a dog run away and get creamed by a car. People we like you should not own dog if you are not ready for the responsibility and all that crap. Most did not even say, "Sorry to hear that" they went right into blame mode. Hey I did not play Lewis and Clarke and decide to run 5 miles from my house in 22 minutes. I don't like being 5 miles from my refrigerator or toilet if I can avoid it. I don't run into loud shinny moving objects. It would be like me running into a jet plane going down the runway. Why blame me? Anyhow, I did feel bad about it but that dog was bad to begin with. A shelter dog. Why do people get shelter dogs. They suck, I am not dog Freud. Would you want to talk and let in your house a shelter person. They are great if you want your life ruined as well. Sure, I support the mentally handicapped and emotionally disturbed and believe all people deserve a quality of life and a great country takes care of these people, just not in my house. Speaking of that some punk looking kid, probably a 22 year old kid skateboarded up to me as I was walking to my car after the 5th 12 hour work day of the week and asked me if I had a dollar. I looked at him very sternly and said no dude. The level of anger was very good in my voice. My body language said that if he pursued this conversation any further I would knock his ass out. No questions asked. It felt good to know that if approached in the public arena I can still deter if need be. Now, if he came to my office and asked I would not have been as aggressive but in a parking lot. I don't feel that it is a safe place to negotiate so I wont bother with the small talk. Just get the F&*& away from me. I am usually a very meek and calm guy.

Okay, I got distracted. I wish that people would take the same causative approach for the mistakes that they make as they do about pet owners. If I screw up, I screwed up. No sense blaming other people for it. I also don't like creating stories of why people screw up. He did it because he was tired, drunk, depressed, lonely, horny, or whatever. Who cares why you screwed up. That is for you to figure out for yourself. I just don't waste my time with it anymore.

One more thought for the day. I find it odd when a girl speaks of another girl as their girlfriend. I often wonder if that means they are a lesbian. Why do I have to confronted with that dilemma. Maybe it is the ugly girls that say it because at least then they can be someones girlfriend.

that is enough for today.

bob

I am feeling a bit cranky

It is not unusual for an Irish man to loose his temper. What bothers me is when if you loose your temper people get offended. That is so gay. Man up and take it. If I loose my temper and it was not at you whom I was angry with please don't make it you. I was really offended when you lost your temper. "Why, I was not even mad at you." It always is about me and so therefore I should understand how others have their self story in every event as well. Lets just say that the worlds sensitive people don't seem to show the tolerance they so need from others. You would think that they would have an idea about how to aid or assist someone who is having a bad day or two. But no, they are incapable. Way too much incapability roaming around me. The options for me are simple. Do I wall off my feelings even further due to the lack of others ability to handle them. Or just get more disciplined in my mind to have complete control of my actions and attitudes. I will most likely do both. Back up with the wall. And then people complain that they don't know me. Do you really want to know me?

Anyhow, on a lighter note. My wife has refused two pearl necklaces that I have tried to give her. Why does she do that? Could the ladies that visit my post inform me of her dislike for my generous gifts. Pearl necklaces are not easy to make, and these were nice big ones so I just don't get it. I try so hard to please her and give something that she can wear when she goes out but like everything else she finds fault in them. Oh well. But whenever I see a woman wearing pearls around her neck I know that she loves her man in a way that I envy.

On a similar subject. I get no respect at all. I went for a massage and the guy charge me extra for his happy ending.

Anyhow, tolerance and acceptance is a flawed strategy. Maybe I will join the masses and just not care. Probably not, that is not my nature. Being the fool for others is not my nature either so something is going to change. We shall see what it is.

BOB

Waiting and Wanting

I can tell you one thing waiting does suck. I am a very patient man but waiting can get pretty annoying. I am sure for those who know me that SURE BOB THAT'S IS WHAT WE HAVE BEEN SAYING ALL THIS TIME . OK to them you are right. Waiting sucks. But when the people you are waiting for suck that is even worse. At least when you wait for me when I get there I don't suck so that is at least better than what I have to deal with like the endless waiting for someone to show you the respect that I am deserved by not allowing this empty feeling of aloneness pursist until I start to worry maybe you jump out of a building and finished off what we wish you would have years ago. Maybe you are still self gratifying yourself with food or stuff that you have to do in the privacy of your bathroom. Maybe you got your hair too wet and needed to let it dry before you left the house. Maybe your dog would not crap on demand and you had to chase it to get it back in


OH lucky you they made it.


BOB

only 37 minutes late.

My wifes husband is an assolehi

Yes it is true. Everyone thinks so.

A couple of random thoughts. I hate it when people ask you if you have a cold. I generally always reply no I have tuberculosis. The despair comes from peoples fear of their own world and how you may contaminate them into getting sick. They don't care if you are sick or not feeling well but would you get me sick. It is a good thing that homosexuality is not contagious or stupidity and ignorance. If all the dumbs asses I run into were contagious I would be eating baby food only.

An interesting topic of positive reinforcement has come up in my life. I believe strongly in the power of positive reinforcement as a lever to move all people with. Negative reinforcement or just general critical tone forces people away. It is a universal law.. Funny thing is how few people seem to understand this fact. I would not be able to recognize positive reinforcement if it was delivered by UPS. People are inherently negative reinforcers and I just don't try to fit that style as I find it very ineffective way of motivating and influencing people. Peoples egos are generally way to fragile to handle any criticism even when it is positive. "Hey Paul those shorts really seem to show your genitals in a positive way." To his reply "Are you looking at my genitals?" Still even positive reinforcements and compliments are shunned as they may be negative.

I just think that people are way too sensitive. I tend to admire those whom are not.


BOB

Why arent funerals any fun?

The funeral went well today. As good as one can go. I did well.....I did not shit my pants or curse all day long. I am glad that I went. It does bring back allot of feelings that I have concerning the loss of my father 8 years ago. You know that you are a narcissist when even at a funeral it is all about me.

I would appreciate that at my funeral we get a stripper pole and do cocaine all night long. Now I am not into that stuff at all and in general find it offensive but who cares I wont know the difference. I must advise that on my death bed bring me a sandwich and plenty off them. I believe that a good sandwich can cure someone. I think it makes more sense than most of the drugs they give you anyway. I also want the priest or who ever is talking about God to be interrupted several times while he is speaking because they always interrupted me during my life to talk their God talk when I want to talk cars and guitars.

I also want some food 6000 grand I want sushi for Christ sake. That is more money than I would pay for a kidney if I needed one. (I am cheap)

Now other thoughts that I had today. If you had to go down on a Senior citizen, for any reason, could you tell her p*&sy from her ass. (funny thing is how can &*%#@! take the vulgarity out of that) And is it reasonable, if you are that hard up to pick up chicks at a mental hospital or halfway house type of setting. I hear those chicks are horny.

Now it is obvious that I have some deep resentment somewhere along the line, and at this rate it wont likely get much better. I do believe that humor is everywhere if you look for it.

Also, and no disrespect intended for those who have tried suicide and failed but wtf. I get it that you are depressed but you must also be stupid because if you can tie your shoes you should be able to jump off a bridge or pull a trigger. Just another random thought of the day.

The thoughts are of the sad variety but I did have bit of a sad day.....(again ALL ABOUT ME)

BOB



PS best wishes to the mother of smatigattzz

Sad day for a dear friend

A tribute to Rocco's Mom who passed away today. Not an easy time. Not an easy way to console. I don't think that you can console such things just be there as a friend. He help me through my loss so I will help him the best I can.



On a lighter note, I am not gay. I made a decision. Can someone decide to be gay like the conservative right believe you can. I personally don't think you can. I also wonder why I have not given myself herpes yet. I never wash my hands before....you know.

I was startled at work today and almost I stress almost responded to outside stimulus. The phone was ringing and after three rings I almost moved to get it. It was then that I noticed that I have cat like reflexes. (albeit a very slow lethargic cat)


That is all for today

bob