I thought of you right before I ate your food

If there is one problem that I have it is being thoughtful.  I may not do what you wish but I did think about you before YOU think that I screwed you over.  Rarely do I not consider people.  The only person I avoid thinking about is myself.  If I ate your food please know that I thought of you first.  I may have even thanked you.

Work is hard with gloomy outlook toward the future, which is likely just normal forecasting for most jobs.  I am over producing my position but that is to be expected.   I am learning that my job is not very interesting to other people and that I am starting to share their opinion as well.  Oh well  I carry on toward my dream of retiring in a homeless shelter just to save money.

One observation that I have had is why do younger people not find Andrew Dice Clay and the Jerky Boys funny?.  Younger people find such little joy in discovery of what was before them that you would just like to slap them.  To bad I find all their shit that they listen to garbage so we have a hard time communicating.   They are as we were and we despise them for it.  I was converted early in my life to value what was old and still relevant by only watching sit-coms that in re run syndication.  I figured it M.A.S.H. was still on 7 years after it went off the air it was likely a good enough show to watch.  Star Trek passed that test as well.  I also learned to like older music as it was played by actual musician who did not have some sort of GOD complex outside of their own group.   WTF, Eric Clapton and Jimmy Page, are not GODS,  They are good copy cats of what came before them.   There should be a GOD that followed GOD and did not give GOD his true Credit.  I guess for all practical purposes JESUS was ELVIS.  No one really had the impact that JESUS had, other than Mohammed,,or Jim Smith, or Oprah.

Does God think he's God?

It is weird that we think that some great leader or thinker is going to change culture to be anything more than it currently is.  I think that maybe now that information is so readily available that it will have less effect than it use to.   What newspaper headline will be significant moving forward.  Do we even care about headlines.  We are always looking for the next car fire or winter storm named Edith.   We only want to have ourselves re-inforced with the Bullshit that we are OK.  That we have value even though we are in debt.  If you don't like the way I am behaving I can leave.  Go ahead and fire me I hear all the time.  Most of the time you fire yourself asshole.  What is an asshole?   It should be the best thing on Earth.  It has the most important job in the World.   It allows you to eat more which is what we are hear to do anyway.   We are performing a RCA,  Root Cause Analysis at work and I think that I can sum it up in three words.  People are Assholes.     If they weren't this would not have happened.  That is the burden of management.  Considering what other people neglected due to their indifference because they would rather be taking a shit at their house than at work.  That is what most people do at work anyway.  I worked with one guy who only clue that he was on his lunch break was that he was eating.

On a positive note,  Maturity is a dismal process of letting yourself go because you are not attractive anymore.  By putting on blinders and single minded focus to achieve what you want regardless of the people around you.   The thought that you have to surround yourself with positive people is ridiculous, they won't care about you either.  On the upside they will be better at it.

I was for the first time in my life considering to shit in my pants on purpose.  That way when it happens again I can say "I meant to do that."

I don't know what type of person I like better.  Those that hide their thoughts well or the open ones.  I generally disagree with both of them and would rather just not hear it so maybe group 1.

Passion in any pursuit is general bullshit.  No one wants to do anything other than watch TV and eat Bon Bons.  Passion is just anger disguised as purpose for things we really do not want to do.

You can never eat too many clams.

When your friends don't want to talk with you about your suffering be aware.

Free will is bullshit.  Fate always determines what happens to you and at the core of every condition there was a choice.

Faith is the lie that Fate has a beneficial side.

Competency is its own reward.

One thought on Mama's boys.  Parents can truly fuck up a person.  When a child is idolized by the parent(s) that child is doomed to be a douche bag.  That person will have a horrific time convincing anyone else that they are worth a cup of horse semen because they already think that they are fantastic.  They will expect that anything that they do will be hung up on the refrigerator.   It is very disappointing when a 30 year is not at the level that you were when you were 16.   Now I am not a perfect person but a chronic douche bag I am not.  I have always been most grateful to those that I have disappointed due to my lack of maturity as those are milestones that I have not passed more than once.   If you consider other people you are alienating yourself from them as you are now not like other people.   Be in it for yourself.

I do feel like I am a poor host if all I have is Miller Lite at the house.  It is proof that Bob does not drink anymore.  Its like if you were a single girl and all I had to offer you for a date is my brother Timmay.   That reminds me of my nice neighbor who gave me 50 bucks to take two young and attractive nieces (or whatever the relation) out for a night while they were visiting.  What the hell was he thinking other than this is the safest way to spend 50 dollars that he ever spent.  Needless to say..............