I did my Best is a lonely consolation

It is a lonely place when you are left after all you efforts and determination with half a sandwich and some chips. Others won't know or care and nor do I for it. Today for me is about me and I am alone and I am fine with that as alone I am. I have made every effort to have done my best and my best I have done. Not perfect some days not even close but overall I handle bad things well. I just don't give that big of a fuck to get too upset. I am a humble person anyway so trouble does not offend me as bad. Call it lack of pride or concern for appearances but I will be fine with my little car and nice guitars. I have had all the success and more than I have ever dreamed I could and that is thanks to my efforts and to those people who have helped me along my way. At some time however, it is your own boat to row. In calm seas or rough no one can help the man in the boat. (why do I always think of beaver)......That's because that is the truth of it all........ I suffer alone better anyway. Me at my worst day is usually better than you at your better day. I just can concentrate through it all and perform. I always could. I can honestly say that few people have the power to reach me when I can reach near everyone. Am I my own island? Irritating me is not connecting with me. The Butterfly Effect does exist. I hope that my effect was a good one. Time to corrupt a whole new area of the country.

When does being a martyr pay more than dismemberment. For Christ sakes it should pay more. Does it entitle you to disability.

Anyway, It is late and I am tired and if you meet me in the parking lot I would gladly kick your ass.

bob