I can blog again or is it too soon

Hello All,  I mean hello Me.  Who the fuck would read this shit anyway.  Not enjoying work as much as I used to which is not too much since I am no longer self employed.  Being an employee is a worthless way to go through life.  Anything you do right you will never gain the reward for and anything you do wrong will be used against you.  Lets face it it all will be used against you.  I wish I could just yell at these Mfrs that my net worth is more than this whole fucking offices times two but who the fuck would care.  They may already know that already.  I guess I am just biding my time until I can retire.  Sad to think that I may have 20 more years of this mindless dribble.   Its not too bad if it was not for the people that I work with, the work itself I find sort of interesting.  I can make anything interesting I guess because I am interesting......Yeah right, All I do is plan the next time I am going to jerk off.  Even that is loosing its interest.  It is a bad sign when you stop doing the things that you enjoy.  Reminds me of the time when my Doctor asked me if I have lost the joy in doing what I used to enjoy.  I asked him if he is asking me if I still Jerk Off.   Jeez, some doctors can't take a joke.  Doctors are generally assholes and I should know. 
Now that I have proven myself smarter than three engineers I wonder what I am going to do for fun at work.   I think that I may just start looking for another job and start it all over again.  It would be like Ground hog day but instead of just walking around some little town (Woodstock Illinois) I could just ruin then rebuild my life over and over again.  I should have a sense of humor about it by now.  I do have another interest on my horizon.  I am studying classical music and in time will be proficient enough to teach it.  If I stay focused on it I should be a high level player.  It is all about the practice and that is what makes anything in life hard.  Being excellent at anything is simple it just isn't easy.  I may close out my life with that.  My first love was always the guitar.  It is the only friend that I have had that does not mind my drinking. 
I do think of others often but hardly ever bother to write or call.  Not that they are not worthy or I am too busy but where do we pick up.  Hi, I forgot about you.  It has been so long since I have last eaten your food or wore your clothes.  So what has changed since I last crapped at your house.  We all get stuck in our small lives.  Too bad our TVs are better friends than people who have helped you settle a debt the old fashioned way  Maybe, it is because people always seem to complain like that is friendship.  I don't care that your wife is a bitch or that you are retarded and just unaware of it   Then the happy friends are assholes too.  Like I really care that you are so please with all of your successes.  I actually am pleased for you but why do you have to make me admit it.  One habit that I would like to break would be this respect and social bullshit that I have picked up.  I am either above or below someone.  I may have spent too much effort trying to fit in an Asian family where that kind of stuff is very important, except to my wife who does not bother thinking about it.  Then why the fuck do I.  Who knows.   One good thing about getting older and the fewer friends you have is that fact there is less people to fit in with.  But there is less chance of getting into a 3 way or a fist fight so it must be even.

It is time to blog again, Maybe twice in one day but only if I am at work

Blogging is good for the soul.  I can open up and tell my true feelings knowing that nobody cares.  I guess I can do that in real life as well as nobody cares.  People are still jerk offs and I still jerk off so it all still makes sense somehow.  Now I am no longer self employed person who takes on all the responsibilities in the World I have found a way to do that at another job.  Not the same.  No sense of pride doing all you can to ensure success and survival where most others in the group would prefer the ship to sink just to tell you they told you so.  It amazes me that I put any effort into people at all.  It further amazes me that I am even here.  Oh well, life can surely deal some surprises.  My wife still tells me how to whip my ass so I am not left without advice and instruction.  The job itself does interest me and the reports I write and research I perform does make me feel some small level of pride.  Too bad that I am less important than a pimple on my boss's ass, at least that's what he told me.  Why are people always honest with me.  It could be that I am honest with them.  Not such a great deal.  I do prefer honesty even when it is false honesty.  I do like that fact that in Arizona you can go and buy a gun and shoot people if you like.  You may have to wait three days so that they can check you out and maybe what you were so mad at will have calmed down enough so that you don't feel the need to kill people.  I can guarantee that I would still feel the same way in three days as I do now.  Work takes way too much time especially if you spend your time at work working.  Most people I have found are of two species those that work in front of others and those that don't.  How the Fuck do these people stay employed.   Oh, I was not going to curse anymore.  I now have agreed with my wife not to make anymore racial jokes of any kind with anyone as it is insulting to her.   She is Korean and finds the term chink demeaning and just plain rude.   It deeply upsets her the idea that I could condone such banter.   Since I myself do not feel any racist thoughts I can do this for her,  more so for myself.  But then again I must change myself to remove oneself from other peoples worthless indulgences.  I might as well give up porn and drugs while I am at it.   Seems simple enough.  I do condone drinking and doing drugs if it helps you cope with your life's problems.  Too bad it generally causes your life's problems at the same time.  But if you are one of the few that it does not seem to injure I want to party with you. (although I do not drink or do drugs) 

I want to move to Michigan just to brag to the World that I can drink with the best of them.  It must be German and Swedes that landed there that make it OK to be drunk all day every day.  Man they are friendly enough to handle it.  Being Irish I am not friendly enough to be drunk every day.  I would for surely say something and do something that all people would find offensive.  Irish people are hands on haters.  Those snobby and aristocratic Germans and Swedes use fancy words and methods to get their hatred across where an Irish person will just punch you.  Remember kicking your ass is always a reasonable option for an Irishman.