Survival of the fittest.

This world is over consumed in every capacity. Maybe less is more. Maybe no criticism is thanks enough. It is hard to compare how soft and self absorbed our culture is until you compare it to others. The American culture has become a culture of one. Focus on the individual has changed into an obsession. We are all self gratifying bastards with little regard to others about 98 percent of the time. I want to shove your iPhone straight up your ass and take your picture with it. We assume others do not care because they do not say so. People are usually nice to us when they want something in return. If you need nothing in return than why are we upset when we do not get it. Balance in life is hard. The hill is always stepper as we look ahead and the past always seems to be more pleasant a place. That is because we forget the pain and remember the good. To bad we can't have that same view of the future. Optimist are jerk offs as well. I am learning as best I can to leave everyone alone. They do not realize that they are as aggravating as they are. Maybe that is why I focus on humor with so many people as a joke or happy moment we both can share and a good laugh is evidence of the joy that we have for each other. But people would rather laugh at stuff or shows from people they do not know. I never understood or participated in sit com humor. Maybe the Cosby Show just pissed me off and I wanted to bang Lisa Bonnet but Dick jokes on TV like that one 2 and 1/2 men just don't appeal to me. I would rather be funny myself. People's sense of humor is an amazing concept into their intimate side. If they laugh they may let you in. If they don't laugh with you they may not trust you. Who knows, Who Cares...........I do. I like to laugh and have some fun. I like it more than anything. More than enjoying making others laugh I enjoy when others make me laugh. It shows me that they feel safe with me enough to say and do foolish things. Most people don't trust people enough to do it as their pride and insecurities limit their affection. You don't have to be dirty joked based to do it. Just funny and inventive. It is about the creation of the humor that is important. Like music I do not like to over practice anything as it takes the joy out of it for me. It is just how I am wired and that will not change. I am the other 2 percent. I do feel blessed with those whom have humor that their mind has space to explore and possess a form of intelligence that is not common or abundant. In the word intelligence is the word tell. Some people are just not funny or only have fun at misusing other people with their actions or words. Those people have spoiled souls and never lift people out of their duress. A good sign that some one is funny or has the power of humor is if they can make you laugh when you are sad or upset. That is the best purpose of it. Life is hard and has a lot of pain and loneliness. Laughing with a friend is your best defence against depression and anxiety. Too often, at least in the media, Humor is used as a tactic to gain your trust. Look at how many commercials are based solely on the humor it demonstrates and not at all on the product it sells. Sex sells but so does humor. I think that in this over sexed society we have now focused our efforts on humor. Unfortunately, this humor has no taste or underlying message. Like the wizard of Oz the man behind the curtain is providing the show. Teams of writers deliver without their identity reveled. Back in our day comics put their reputations and persona on the line. Carlin, Pryor, etc were people whom wrote most of their material. Now it is a show based on the lowest common denominator. Not based on Art or true social commentary. Nothing is what it seems. When you watch a TV show you are buying the brain washing to consume instinctively items that you will desire. Even if you don't buy them you will desire them based on the marketing strategy. Every Sunday is the Superbowl now and you have permission to drink beer with 18 of your closets friends. I have about 5 closets friends and as a matter of mutual benefits I do not drink with them........If you are wondering why I have changed subjects it is because I had a phone call that distracted my first portion of the passage and in true to form I don't think much about what I do.......I just do. Most likely I do it better than you...........Keep your comments to yourself would be a great self help book. The things you should not say could be another. Or I am here for you to hurt me so go ahead...................Getting back to what is real. People have what they want to have. You will find a way to get what you want from people. You can forgive or deny forgiveness based on what you really want. Other people demand to be treated in a way that pleases them not you. You can either please them or not, if that pleases you. If you want to know what others will give you in the future look at what they gave you in the past. Expecting other things means you are a dumb ass. We are all alone in our world competing for the attention of other people. Is it unreasonable to expect from others what you can't do yourself? If you respect yourself how much do you need from other people. Validation is great but it should not be a necessity for your behavior. Sometimes you are right when others are wrong. Basic principles of self reliance and gratification starts with masturbation.

The best laid plans never result in having sex.

If life was as we expect it would be I would have 29 blow jobs this week alone. Maybe one or two a month would be great but I would not want to put you out. Who cares anyway? I don't know of many people over the age of 28 who are happy with their sex lives and if I did I would like you even less. We all live in the past in that regard I imagine. I spend the best moments of my life alone so why would sex be any different. I can almost predict my next move as if I know what I am going to do next. At least I am able to meet my expectations. As far as those young lustful days of ejoying the whole process. Like cooking for other people it is more of a burden that just leads to critisizm and group disappiontment. Again, doing it all by yourself at least leaves you satisfied and without the wise comments of how they like it or not. Why do people always find pleasure in something negative to say but hardship in something kind? Why do people seem so surprised when you return their bullshit to them like you created it in the first place?

Well it is time to start blogging again

It has been a long time and I thought that facebook was the place to write my muse but it is apparent to me that too many people on there don't really care to read what you have to say. Or better yet too many self absorbed types that can't find humor in a hand job. I mean come on there are better alternatives. Either way it is time to start writing down the thoughts that I have as I feel they are mostly good and reflect what I value and persieve. First of all most people are rude and if they are not rude they are boring. Unfortunately, many people are both. I have noticed also that few people have your best interests in mind as YOU exist as only comparison to how they exist. I am tired of their empty minds and empty hearts. I would prefer empty minds and hearts as most peoples minds and hearts are filled with thier own piss. In a world of few allies I have come to recognize those that are my allies. I may seem hurt but tell me what you did to extend yourself to another person and how did they treat you for it. Most likely they looked at you like you were retarted and in many ways we are. The concept of changing for the better does not include constant redicule and judgement of others. Letting people lay as they are is a wonderful concept. We offer more respect to a sleeping dog than our family and friends. Also what annoys me is how people never pre think about their encounters. The questions they ask are more like medical histories or interrigations that attempt to expose your weaknesses. I almost don't care about it anymore. If you were worthless to me when I was down you are more worthless now that I am climbing back up. I too make assessments of you but it is more a way to ensure that you are on a good path and to engage you in a way the lifts you upward. If your path to achievement involves pushing others down you are on a lonely path. To all those who are envious you are ignorant of your own worthlessness. I am no longer interested in carrying your bloated weight. You can include me in your comparisions as I am no longer offended by your harrassment............The take home message is that if you are good with you you are good with others. Others are always tolerable and managable when you have a good view of yourself. When you consider how little people care for your successes you will not be as eager to grant credibility to their critisizms. Again, I feel like I am being defiant and angry. Critisizm hurts more when you can not allow yourself to be wrong. Living a life is about being wrong. Why where you wrong and for what were you wrong about. Being lazy, insensitive and mean spirirted is no way for a mature adult to behave. Then why do we do it. We do it to cure our own empty feelings for ourselves. I am tired of people self medicating with insults. If you are going to be coarse at least have some humor. Even Joan Rivers is occasionally funny. Make an effort at not being impuslsively bad humored.......That all being said I will not adbandon the assholes in my life as they are better than the indiferent. Just don't expect me to be bothered by your bullshit......