It is hard to cope with the world when you are openly gay.

It would be easier to be openly gay than to openly show how I feel about most people most of the time.  Why do we bother having to hide our feelings, our unconscious thoughts.  Most people don't hide theirs so why should I hide mine.  I can read most people most of the time or so I think.  I do prefer straightforward people that can just express their disdain open and honestly.  Unfortunately we all tend to hide our true thoughts and then we do stupid things like make racial slurs or condemn entire generations just to make the point that I am disappointed in you and do not respect you. Maybe it is safer just to be honest and share our disapproval but what good would that do.

My buddy called to tell me that he thinks that I have low T.  What a fuck face.  At least he is thinking of me.    Not the greatest of comments or messages.  Maybe I am focused too much on what is wrong with people that what is right with them.    Half the world has vaginas and that is great to have.  The rest of them have penises and that is good to.