Are we all ready to die.

Yeah that is a grim one but recently several people close to me have attempted suicide. Not a great hobby to start. Especially if you are good at what you do. I would never try that as a remedy but who knows. No one wants mental illness. Too bad we dont have brain viagra. Sure you can take meds for depression but viagra can give you a hard on that lasts for hours and hours. You can use your dick to carve wood if you had to. Yup, that viagra is better than paxil. Now I never had to take those paxil style of meds. I just dont believe in the bullshit answers that doctors give patients or furthermore what patients would accepts. Lets face it no 200 pills are going to cure the fact that you are an asshole. Also why is the word viagra look like the word vagina. Why dont they just call it vagina and get it over with. Those drug names do bother me. Flowmax. Now that would have to be a pill for guys as I could never see a woman buying a pill called flowmax. I just dont like to be marketed to constantly. Just tell me the truth and I will do with it as I may. If you market to me I will resist it.

As far as my music goes I am still the best guitarist that I have in my head. I do enjoy playing and actually listening as well to others play but my enthusiasm gets the better of me and I dominate the world again. All because I am aware of my defects will have little effect upon future outbreaks. Maybe I need valtrex for my mind. To prevent future asshole outbreaks. Either way, I care less and less about what other people think of my music. If you dont like it I dont care. I probably dont like how you play either although at least I try. I generally try to find something that I like in everybody. Some people are harder.

Did you ever be rude in general to avoid a worse situation. I had to today to avoid talking about a more sensitive issue. I generally have control over what I do even when it looks like I don't.

Anyhow, lets not get too heavy. I sold a guitar, reducing down the fleet. I have enough anyway and too much is just that too much. If I don't love it it must go. Too bad I cant use that motto everywhere. We tend to keep around which we don't love. My dogs better not piss me off.

Trying to stay peacefully although I am not. Each day is a fight for all that I have. Its no joke. Death will come to us all and I question us to what we have learned. Do we at least know ourselves. Why do we judge others based off of their weaknesses. I tend to accept them as part of the whole and not separate it. Life is stressful. So much so that it can kill you. After that you have nothing anyway. So why worry about it now.